I had a panic attack during my math final a few days ago and likely failed it. In short, my mental health has been going down a bit over the past month with the stress of sports, academics, and the next incarnation of the Black Plague. Now that I’m at home, I can mentally relax and try to cope with that anxiety rather than stuffing it deep down until it explodes. I’ve gotten faster and more explosive just because I’ve been getting enough rest and eating well. Before, when we were in season, I was getting around 5 hours of sleep a night and eating whatever I could throw together for dinner at 9 or 10pm.
My dad is home as well, and this is the most time I’ve had to spend with him in years. Usually I’m training or travelling for sports and he’s working or travelling for work, so we’re like passing ships. Last night he made cookies with me for the first time in about 7 years, and it’s one of my favorite moments of 2020 so far. Speaking of food, I get access to a lot more fresh food. From our garden, the local farmers markets, and the grocery store, we have enough food to survive a total shutdown if need be. I’m seriously grateful for that considering the poverty level in San Jose is quite high.