Who started your life on the earth or who are the parents ? First answer is about parents. Second answer is hidden in our soul, how it shapes us, gives us idea about ourselves. And last one is our body, which is here to provide a physical existence of your soul to accomplish for it is created. All the three answers play a crucial role in defining ‘who am I’. Nature will keep challenging with different challenges but will provide a strength to tackle something coming in the future. If you are able to do it, you will find satisfaction from your life., you will be content in it. That will be the day you would have got yourself. Till then keep flipping yourself and keep searching, keep asking. Nonreligious persons, which make up people who are openly atheist, agnostic, deist, and makes estimates on the number of “closed” atheists, make up anywhere between 1.5–2 billion people on the entire planet. A “closed” atheist, for those who do not know, is sorta my term for people who do not believe in personal deities (theism), but do not come out publicly about it over fear of punishments either from their families, society or from the law. But entirely assuming that the number of atheists worldwide didn’t include any “closed” atheists, the number of nonreligious persons is around 1.5 billion. Now, notice I said nonreligious persons, not atheists. It’s very hard to gather data on the number of atheists in the planet since many individuals actually put down the religions their parents followed, even though they themselves do not believe strictly in that religion. It also doesn’t help when many countries have strong social pressures and actual laws condemning atheism or when the atheist lives in an extremely religious household. Furthermore, reaching such a wide group of people is itself quite a challenge.
There are many, many countries where atheists are hated by the society at large or where it is downright illegal to be an atheist and punished by death. In fact, the vast majority of the developing world despises atheists and of all atheists worldwide, the largest number of them are located in China (200 million), which only has it such a way since the country went through several religious purges in the first place. Most societies in the world condemn atheism as some heathenistic, immoral concept that must be purged from all god-fearing, holy, righteous societies. This is particularly why atheism was not too popular in Europe or America during most of their histories. Typically, many people, both religious and nonreligious, do not actively engage on topics of religion. As such, they do not grow up ever learning terms such as atheism, agnosticism, deism, pantheism or theism. In fact, they probably do not even know what group they’d fall into (that group likely being apatheism). Point being that a lot of people likely do not care about the topic enough to hold a position on it either way. Many of these people may be nominally atheist or nominally theist, they just do not care enough on the topic to decide for themselves. These are, in my humble opinion, the main underlying reasons for why atheism has a relatively smaller following of people than major world religions. Admire, by all accounts, your quest for the right answers. Eventually we may learn that life is not about getting the right answers. That life’s real task is to ask the right questions. Every person has grown up differently and have their own beliefs that subject them into building values throughout their life. This upbringing builds certain authorities within their personality that make them feel that Religion, Nationality, Roots, Family and so on are things worth dying for.