I rolled over and there, on my pillow, was a beautiful ladybug Los Angeles baseball walk off Walsh Jared Walsh shirt. He kept his promise. Ladybugs have been a big part of my life in the time since then, as one inevitability comes to me when I would need my beloved brother the most. The day he was buried one landed on my hand. The day our dad died, two were in my car. When I got married one flew in my hair and the day my precious daughter was born there was one inside the hospital delivery room. He finds little ways to let me know he’s still with me. And then there’s my knowledge that he’s with my daughter as well. When she was about 2, she started laughing and clapping wildly. I stooped down and asked her what she was doing. “Pwayin wif my unka Tigga, Mama. Him funny. He wuvs me so much”. Our niece called Jeff “Uncle Tigger”. No one else knew, especially not my daughter that was born 3 years after his death. He was there, playing with the niece he would have adored. Jeff was a light, a joy to everyone that knew him, and I still miss him every day and always will. But I will be forever grateful that I had someone so amazing in my life.