We spent many weekends in his friends Newport mansion. He was married before and had two fantastic daughters I love and helped raise successfully . He was the best husband I ever had . But all the talking and closeness means nothing if you can’t talk to yourself, your inner dialog with yourself is the most important relationship you ever have, and those conversations he had with himself are what broke us up. He cheated with a young girl who made him feel flattered he was 50 she was 21.
They were colleagues she was not pretty, it wasn’t about that , it was his inner need to feel he still had something to offer that she filled. Oh I filled them for 4 years, but eventually we need to know we are somebody to ourselves and to others as well. We love attention, to feel valued and seek attention just to see if we can get it, to gauge how we are doing. When we do , our choices make us or break us. I was heartbroken. Every day I was happy with him, it meant something to me. I loved him fully, but cheating? A deal breaker!